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SLACKiNG<3

Tue, 19 Sep 2006 03:06:49 GMT

i forgot i had this thing for a while..
oOps!

i dont have my lip ring anymore.. i changed it to a stud too soon
so my skin like grew over the part in my mouth..
i had to get surgury on the inside of my mouth .. eeh.. it sucked!!
i miss it =(

i went camping last weekend. kinda. lol
we went to my summer cabbin and chilled.
madd fun. =) we went friday, left saturday..got more people..and went back that night.
it was awesome. i cant wait to go back <33

Tue, 29 Aug 2006 02:25:00 GMT

So the last few days i've been chillin at my house with people ..me angela jackie and ali got like the biggest bottle of Jack and got soo fucked up it was great! haha..i love it! today me and Angela went with Rich and Billy to get our concert tickets for this friday. were going to Family Falues and i cant wait to see FLYLEAF && DEFTONES!! <33 then were going to sea side until saturday night. *yAy* after that we went on a blunt ride with christo then came home and took the car to McDonalds..lol we wanted to go swimming and we met up with melissa and then Christo and we went to the swimming hole but it was mad cold so we just played on the really big rocks until it got dark and rolled up a blunt and bounced. Ricky Rich && Rob went to see throwdown tonight at the Chance..im sooo bored right now!! lol i just came home a little bit ago and i dont wanna go out cuz my head is killing me, but its Jackies birthday so i dunno whattttt to do.

yeaaaa im

1) Do you have a penis?
well i guess you can say that, since my boyfriends penis is mine! lol

2) Do you pray?
no

3) Are you in love?
yupp

4) Ever wish on stars?
yea sometimes

5) Do you believe in karma?
yes

6) What's your zodiac sign?
Gemini

7) Have you ever almost died?
yessss a few times actually..lol

8) Ever broken any bones?
nope

9) Do you cry during sad movies?
yes

10) Do you like to dance?
yea

11) Ever laid under the stars?
yes

12) Ever sat on a rooftop?
almost everyday

13) Is there such thing as a soul mate?
i believe so

14) Could you live without the television?
yea def.

15) Could you live without music?
no def. not

16) Do you have any self inflicted scars?
maaaybe

17) What do you dislike the most about life?
people who cause drama

18) Have you ever been to jail?
no ..but i have been arrested

19) Ever had a job for less than a day?
lol yea

20) Ever been fired on your first day?
no

21) Ever been fired because of your attitude?
no

22) Do you get jealous of other people?
sometimes

23) Would you rather love someone or be loved?
be loved, cuz loving someone & not being loved back is too hard

24) What's under your bed right now?
the floor

25) Ever done anything illegal?
many things

26) Ever dumped somebody?
yes

27) How cool are you?
cooler then you..duh

28) Do you support abortion?
i dont support it, im not all for it, and im not against it

29) Do you believe in God?
no

30) Did you graduate high school?
yes

31) Do you wear the same clothes two days in a row?
only if i didnt wear it for that long and if it didnt get dirty

32) Have you ever driven someone crazy?
lol many people

33) Ever bullied someone?
yea

34) Ever done the Macarena?
yeah! lol

35) Do you act your age?
sometimes

36) Is it okay to disrespect your parents?
depends

37)Do you flush the toilet when youre done?
duuuuuh

38) How long do you stay in the shower?
15 - 35 minutes

39) What kind of soap do you use?
dial

40) Are mullets cool?
lol nooo

41) Spiderman, Batman, or Superman?
superman

42) Do you like your middle name?
yea
43) What's your favorite color?
pink..duh

44) Has anyone ever cheated on you?
maybe

47) Favorite flower?
yellow rose

48) Have you ever shaved your head?
noo

49) Do you think marijuana should be legal for medicinal use?
yea

50) Do you think it is okay to drink and drive?
not at fuckin all..i lost way to many friends from that this year!

51) If you won $1 million dollars, what would you buy first?
a house and a new car

52) Do you fear terrorism?
yes

54) What's your favorite candle scent?
i dunno

55) Do you use profanity?
sure

56) Who's the last person you talked to on AIM?
Angela

57) What's something you're ashamed of?
dont worry about it lol

58) What woke you up last night?
nothing

59) What did you dream about last night?
i dont remember

60) Ever been to the zoo?
yea

61) How many beers did you have today?
none

62) What's the last movie watched?
10 things i hate about you

63) Are you usually late or on time?
both
.
64) What's a cartoon you watch?
a lot..lol

65) Do you have any imaginary friends?
no .. my real life friends are enough thanks lol

66) Are you waiting on something right now?
yea ricky to get home <3

67) Do you wear a bra to sleep?
noooo thats not good for u

68) Who's ugly? Who's beautiful?
Amanda is ugly.. i am beautiful! =)

69) Are you worried about something?
not at all

kay im done now...lol later <3

l00k @ what i did!

Fri, 25 Aug 2006 15:06:58 GMT

peirced my lip! =) yeaaa..i love it!

sup sucka♥

Thu, 24 Aug 2006 06:14:13 GMT

today is the 23rd..well, it was..i guess in some ways it still is cuz i have yet to go to sleep. lol. <3 1.23.04 <3 things are amazing! hmm.. My friend Adam started dating my friend Vikki which is mad cool, they have been hangin out with us the last few days. Vikki is friends with the slut Amanda and told me how Amanda had a picture of Ricky on her phone and was like 'oh isnt he so cute" lol...yeaa he is pretty cute isnt he. and he's allllll mine!! =) Me and Angela have been talking..we were gunna chill today but we didnt, Kristen came down for a little bit tho. Tomorrow night jackie ali liz sarah are sleeping over to have a "girls night" haha..yea were dorks..i doubt it is gunna be just the girls sence all of our boyfriends live on or really close to my house but yea..lol. In 2 months is the Atreyu concert and i cantttt wait!! its going to be so sick!! So far its me Ricky Timmy and JT going..im sure mad people will end up comming like always. =) friday is another concert with Flyleaf Deftones Korn and mad other bands, im sooo excited for that..i wanna see flyleaf so bad! Tonight i got my very first prank phone call!! lol...actually, it was pretty lame..i couldnt even understand what they were saying something about a tv show and then i hung up..hmm i wonder who that was..lol soo pathetic! i never pick up blocked calls but Ricky was waiting for his cousin to call him back so i had to pick up. oh well.. im glad people waste their time stalking me...i know im the shit but damn. haha. alright im gunna go lay down and try to fall asleep. good night <3

i loveeeee my baby!!

hey hottie

Wed, 09 Aug 2006 17:52:03 GMT

Guess what im doing tomorrow....

SEEiNG
iT DiES TODAY
SHADOWS FALL
POiSiON THE WELL && SOME OTHER BANDS.

@ Nokia..i love Nokia that place is the shit. I cant wait. Me, Ricky, Eric, Melissa, Timmy, JT, Vic && Chrisitna are all going. its gunna be sick!!

Friday night we chilled at the bar (Noels) until like 2..came home chilled wit J Mills for a bit then went to my babys and passed out, we had to wake up at 10 to go back to Noels with Rickys family for his grandfathers party. It was mad funny leaving at 2 and being back their as soon as it opens the next day haha. Then we me and Ricky went shopping cuz he needed new sneakers, he brought me really cute etnies, aero flip flops and earings..he's the best!!

see arent they hot =)~

alright i gotta go get ready...peace biitchs <33

xoxo

Mon, 07 Aug 2006 00:01:25 GMT

i was sitting here writing an entry..and i got bored.

so ill make it short && sweet....
life is amazing these days.

the end.
<3

all about a slut

Sun, 30 Jul 2006 04:24:37 GMT

its funny how you talk shit about both me && Danielle.
is it maybe because we both have the guys you want??
yeaaa..i think thats what it is.

you wanted Kenny..she has him.
you wanted Ricky..i have him.

hmm..maybe that should tell ya something hunnie..YOUR A NASTY SLUT!
their is nothing cute about you, your like 10 feet tall, your hair is always a mess..so is your face.
and you have the body of a football player!!

Ricky was only nice to you to piss me off..but look who he's with...ME
&& look who wants him...YOU!

you told people you would leave Nick for him, your pathetic!
Rickys going to tell Nick everything and then maybe Nick will see how
fucking useless you really are. he can do soo much better!!

you called Danielle pussy saying she would be scared to fight me...well why
dont you fight me cuz i would fucking LOVE to get my hands on you,
i bet your too scared tho...BITCHHHH!!!! hahahaha

alright well im about to go sleep over my babys house...thats right, BE JEALOUS!!
*MaUhZ*

did you know..

Fri, 28 Jul 2006 01:16:39 GMT

i *heart* sluts

the fun has just started...hahahaha

tisk tisk

Sun, 23 Jul 2006 18:57:29 GMT

numero uno:
i know the shit i write in my journal is here for whoever to read.
do i care? not at all.
if you see it, congratz..
but for people to go out of their way to show it to someone to start shit is kind of dumb.
it didnt matter if ricky saw my journal..if i was hiding shit from him, it wouldnt be on the internet.
come on now. duh. lol.

i honestly dont care..its whatever. rockland county people are all the same.

and for the person * im pretty sure i know who it is *
who made a sn actin like there me..get a fuckin grip ur pathetic!
i know im the shit, but come on now...stop stalking me.
damn.

madness

Sun, 16 Jul 2006 00:02:17 GMT

the other night was crazii. first off kaypee and Nadia were fighting..it got really bad and they ended up fist fighting which was insane, like Nadia's face was all bloody and yesterday when i saw her it was really bad. her and kaypee made up tho, idiots..what a pointless fight. thank god thats over tho. lol. then their was this party in pearl river that these kids joey chuncks ryan and peter are friends with went to and ended up getting into a fight cuz once again people are bitchs and feel the need to jump people. losers. so we met up with mad people and went back their to fight again and they didnt even show up! but the cops did..lol..we were like hidin in this persons backyard cuz the cop was driving around looking for us cuz mad people booked it across the feild. haha. it was crazii. we all got away tho he drove down the road and turned around so once he passed again we were out and ran to the cars. the kids who jumped him are fuckin faggots fron PR and jersey who think there rappers..haha its soo funny! i found them on myspace and it cracked me up. they called someone and said that sence their were girls they were gunna bring girls...OH BOY WATCH OUT NOW!! lmao. that was a joke..i feel bad for the next person i fight..its gunna be a really bad one and i hope someone is their to pull me away otherwise its gunna be no bueno. lol tonight is the last night of the carnival so i think were gunna go their. last night we went for a little bit, saw mad people i havent seen in forever..it was cool. kay im going to go finish gettin ready. later bitchs <3

how do i taste?

Fri, 14 Jul 2006 09:02:23 GMT

u can talk all the shit that you want..
what it comes down to is I FUCKED YOUR MAN,
and he loved it..too bad his dicks mad small and hes fuckin ugly!
maybe if it wasnt like that he could have kept my attention.
ooh and how is the cream kennys mom gets him working cuz his thighs rub together??
im sure he will let you use it..just ask slob. <33

if Kenny knocks u up are u gunna kill the baby like you did the last few times??
thats fucked up, use a condom u dirty slut! damn

ur 18..im 21..ur legal..remember that.
ps. i like a chalange which you are not...but dont u worry..u'll get yours.
im not the one..stop stalking me, if i wanted ur faggot boyfriend i would have him AGAIN!
&& dont you forget that.

he started to date u, then got with me the next day..face it..ur second best.
im alwayz number one.

hop the fuck off or pop off..have it ur way..
i fuckin dare u to come say shit to my face.

oh em gee

Thu, 13 Jul 2006 04:23:11 GMT

So yesterday we me kaypee jackie and jackies brother mark were driving and we passed Kenny at a light, jackie jumped up and gave him the finger. haha. it was soo funny. at first he waved to us and smiled..loser. so when we got back to Jackies he calls Jackies phone and asks why we gave him the finger as if he doesnt know..fucking idiot. so we hang up on him cuz hes a waste of time...we keep chillin whatever, we were drinking and playin this drinking game and then his slob// baby killer girlfriend Danielle calls us telling us not to call her boyfriend. LMAO first off, he called us and this wasnt the first time. he called my phone mad times but i wont pick it up cuz i cant stand his ugly ass. She is really pretty pathetic, like its really not my fault that Kenny started to date her nasty ass and it wasnt enough for him so he came and hooked up with me. Like the day after they started going out he was at Mallorys chillin with us all over me kissing me and all this shit. Danielle is just a pathetic slob who cant do any better so she has to deal with a guy who is going to cheat on her. Its pretty sad, i feel bad for the chick. ANYWAY..The carnival is here!! the cool one right outside of Jackies house, i cant wait to go! Today it rained so they didnt open..its gunna be soo much fun!! Mad people are gunna come, Heryea Coffey and those boys..all my girls..Ricky and his friends..yea its gunna be fun! Jelen might come too, we actually got to hang out with him the other night!! haha. we went to his house and watched him light this kid on fire it was mad funny then he came with us back to Rickys house to chill. alight im soo tierd..im gunna go lay down with Ricky and watch tv. nighty night guys &hearts;

i like this picture, Jackie took it in Kaypees car the other night. =]

[EDIT] i cant sleep..so yea..(Click here to post your own answers for this meme.)

× I miss somebody right now. (no, cuz he's here with me <3)	✓ I don't watch much TV these days.	× I own lots of books.
✓ I wear glasses or contact lenses. (i never remember to wear my glasses)	× I love to play video games.	✓ I've tried marijuana. (duh..who hasnt)
✓ I've watched porn movies. (haha)	× I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship. (uhm no..i always have psycho ex boyfriends tho)	✓ I believe honesty is usually the best policy. (key word..USUALLY!)
✓ I curse sometimes. (sometimes..not a lot tho)	✓ I have changed a lot mentally over the last year.	× I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.

* * * * *

✓ I have broken someone's bones. (dumb bitch)	✓ I have a secret that I am ashamed to reveal. (i guess u could say that)	× I hate the rain.
× I'm paranoid at times.	✓ I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.	✓ I need/want money right now.
× I love sushi.	✓ I talk really, really fast.	× I have fresh breath in the morning.
× I have long hair.	× I have lost money in Las Vegas. (not Vegas yet..but Atlantic city)	✓ I have at least one sibling.
× I was born in a country outside of the U.S.	✓ I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past. (fingernails..)	✓ I couldn't survive without Caller I.D.
× I like the way that I look. (sometimes)	✓ I have lied to a good friend in the last 6 months.	× I am usually pessimistic.
✓ I have a lot of mood swings.	× I think prostitution should be legalized.	× I slept with a roommate.
✓ I have a hidden talent. (haha its not all that hidden)	× I'm always hyper no matter how much sugar I have.	✓ I have a lot of friends.
✓ I have pecked someone of the same sex. (i made out with them too.)	✓ I enjoy talking on the phone.	× I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants.
✓ I love to shop and/or window shop.	✓ I'm obsessed with my Xanga or Livejournal. (&& MYSPACE!)	× I'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.
✓ I have a mobile phone.	✓ I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.	× I've rejected someone before.
✓ I currently like/love someone. (1.23.04)	✓ I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.	✓ I want to have children in the future.
✓ I have changed a diaper before.	× I've called the cops on a friend before.	× I'm not allergic to anything.
✓ I have a lot to learn.	× I am shy around the opposite sex.	✓ I'm online 24/7, even as an away message.
✓ I have at least 5 away messages saved.	✓ I have tried alcohol or drugs before. (tried many times lol)	✓ I have made a move on a friend's significant other or crush in the past. (yea her crush...my bad)
× I own the "South Park" movie.	× I have avoided assignments at work/school to be on Xanga or Livejournal.	✓ I enjoy some country music.
✓ I would die for my best friends.	× I'm obsessive, and often a perfectionist.	× I have used my sexuality to advance my career. (not to advance my career, but boobs get us far these days lol)
× I think Halloween is awesome because you get free candy.	✓ I have dated a close friend's ex.	✓ I am happy at this moment.
× I'm obsessed with guys.	× Democrat.	× Republican.
× I don't even know what I am.	× I am punk rockish.	× I go for older guys/girls, not younger.
× I study for tests most of the time.	× I tie my shoelaces differently from anyone I've ever met.	× I can work on a car.
× I love my job(s).	× I am comfortable with who I am right now.	✓ I have more than just my ears pierced.
✓ I walk barefoot wherever I can.	✓ I have jumped off a bridge.	✓ I love sea turtles.
× I spend ridiculous amounts of money on makeup.	✓ I plan on achieving a major goal/dream.	× I am proficient on a musical instrument.
× I hate office jobs.	× I went to college out of state.	× I am adopted.
× I am a pyro.	✓ I have thrown up from crying too much.	✓ I have been intentionally hurt by people that I loved.
× I fall for the worst people.	✓ I adore bright colours.	✓ I usually like covers better than originals.
× I hate chain theme restaurants like Applebees and TGIFridays.	× I can pick up things with my toes.	✓ I can't whistle.
✓ I have ridden/owned a horse.	✓ I still have every journal I've ever written in.	✓ I talk in my sleep.
× I've often thought that I was born in the wrong century.	✓ I try to forget things by drowning them out with loads of distractions.	× I wear a toe ring.
✓ I have a tattoo. (i have 3)	× I can't stand at LEAST one person that I work with.	× I am a caffeine junkie.
× I am completely tree-huggy spiritual, and I'm not ashamed at all.	✓ If I knew I would get away with it, I would commit at least one murder. (fuck that, i would kill a lot of people)	× I will collect anything, and the more nonsensical, the better.
× I enjoy a nice glass of wine with dinner.	✓ I'm an artist.	× I am ambidextrous.
× I sleep with so many stuffed animals, I can hardly fit on my bed.	× If it weren't for having to see other people naked, I'd live in a nudist colony.	× I have terrible teeth. (ew no my teeth are PERfECT!! i HATE bad teeth!!)
× I hate my toes.	✓ I did this meme even though I wasn't tagged by the person who took it before me. (what?)	× I have more friends on the internet than in real life.
× I have lived in either three different states or countries.	× I am extremely flexible. (im pretty flexable..not extremely)	× I love hugs more than kisses.
✓ I want to own my own business.	× I smoke. (ew no)	× I spend way too much time on the computer than on anything else.
× Nobody has ever said I'm normal.	× Sad movies, games, and the like can cause a trickle of tears every now and then.	× I am proficient in the use of many types of firearms and combat weapons.
× I like the way women look in stylized men's suits.	✓ I don't like it when people are unpleased or seem unpleased with me.	✓ I have been described as a dreamer or likely to have my head up in the clouds.
✓ I have played strip poker with someone else before.	✓ I have had emotional problems for which I have sought professional help. (lol yea im crazii)	✓ I believe in ghosts and the paranormal.
✓ I can't stand being alone.	✓ I have at least one obsession at any given time.	× I weigh myself, pee/poo, and then weigh myself again.
× I consistently spend way too much money on obsessions-of-the-moment.	× I'm a judgmental asshole.	× I'm a HUGE drama-queen.
× I have travelled on more than one continent.	× I sometimes wish my father would just disappear.	× I need people to tell me I'm good at something in order to feel that I am.
× I am a Libertarian.	✓ I can speak more than one language.	× I can fall asleep even if the whole room is as noisy as it can be.
× I would rather read than watch TV.	× I like reading fact more than fiction.	× I have pulled an all-nighter on an assignment I was given a month to do.
× I have no piercings. (more like my ears nose and tongue)	✓ I have spent the night in a train station or other public place.	× I have been so upset over my physical gender that I cried.
× I once spent Christmas completely alone because there was a miscommunication on which parent was supposed to have me that night.	✓ There have been times when I have wondered "Why was I born?" and may/may not have cried over it.	× I like most animals better than most people.
× I own a collection of retro games consoles.	× The thought of physical exercise makes me shiver.	× I have hit someone with a dead fish.
× I am compulsively honest.	× I was born with a congenital birth defect that has never been repaired.	× I have danced topless in front of dozens of complete strangers.
× I have gone from wishing I was a girl to revelling in being a boy to feeling like a girl again in the span of five minutes, and not cared a whit for my actual sex.	× I am unashamedly bisexual, and have different motivations for my desires for different genders.	× I sometimes won't sleep a whole night or eat a whole day because I forget to.
× I find it impossible to get to sleep without some kind of music on.	✓ I dislike milk.	× I obsessively wash my hands.
× I always carry something significant around with me.	× Sometimes I'd rather wear a wig in day-to-day life than use my own hair.	× I've pushed myself to become more self-aware and thereby more aware of others.
× Even though I live on my own I still cry sometimes because I miss my mother.	× I hand wrote all the HTML tags in this document. (loser)	✓ I've liked something which a majority of people claimed was either bad or weird.
× I have been clinically dead for a brief period of time.	✓ Instead of feeling sympathy/empathy with people and their problems, I simply become annoyed. (sometimes..)	✓ I participate/have participated in auto drag races and won.
× I do not 'get' most comedy acts.	✓ I don't think strippers are money-greedy or slutty for dancing.	× I don't like to chew gum.
× I am obsessed with history/historical things and can't wait for someone to build a time machine so I can be the first to use it.	✓ I can never remember for the life of me where I parked the car.	× I had the TEEN ANGST thing going for at least 2-3 years.
× I wish people would be more empathic and honest with each other.	× I play Dungeons and Dragons weekly.	✓ I love to sing.
× I want to live in my mother's basement when I grow up.	× I have a custom-built computer.	✓ I want to create a certain someone's babies, even though there's a 0% possiblity of ever achieving it. (tito ortiz, john cena and m shadows...oh baby!)
× I would be in a relationship with one of my pets if they were human.	× I've gone skinny-dipping.	× I've performed in three plays.
× I enjoy burritos.	× I'm Irish and loving it.	× I have a thing for redheads.
× I am a twin!	× Most of the times, I'd rather do something intellectual instead of doing something generically 'fun'.	× Once I set out to finish something, I always stay at it until it is completed before I move on to something else.
✓ I wish there were a way to erase past mistakes.	× I sleep more than 12 hours a day.	× I wish I could be prouder of what I've accomplished, but it's never enough.
✓ I need more time to myself.	× I wish I was more open-minded.	× I hope that I go really prematurely grey.
✓ I download songs from the internet.	× I've just reenacted chapter 58 of Death Note with my best friend.	× I say random things to freak people out.
× I'm still a little mad about the ending of Death Note.	× I love playing Truth or Dare. (haha what a bad game!)	× I love listening to slow music, but I hate singing to it.
× Music helps me remember that I am not alone.	× Playing my favorite sport makes me temporarily forget my problems.	✓ I think this survey is particularly long. (fuck yea)
× I prefer my LJ friends to my real-life ones.	× I can only hate someone that I love. (i hate mad people)	× I've ordered an extra two shots of espresso to an Americano at Starbucks.

SEASiDE <3

Mon, 12 Jun 2006 21:50:09 GMT

I woke up early and spent like all day renting a car, i picked up my sister and we came back to rockland cuz we were up by her house like an hour away. we picked up Kaypee and Jimmy and got shit together and started for seaside. it was a pretty fun, but i didnt enjoy myself too much cuz of the dumb boys we chilled with. lol but yea..then saturday it was cold and windy so we wanted to come back to NY and chill with our friends, Kenny called me while we were laying on the beach and said he wanted to hang out so yea i def. wanted to come back then. lol so we met up with Mallory jackie Amanda scottie kenny richie and this other kid and went like 25 minutes into NJ and got a hotel room and had maddddd fun!! like that was one of the best times i have had in mad long. i spent most of my time hangin out with Kenny, it was awesome =] i was so fucked up this whole weekend, it was crazy. me and kaypee got our noses peirced and i love it, it looks so hot!! i took sooo many pictures, but i was so fucked up saturday night that i had my camera in my shirt and i dropped it in my vodka and orange juice lol oops. but when i was telling my mom last night she went to her room and brought out a new camera, its one of those tiny ones and its pink..its cute but i NEED a regular one, like my broken one. grr. okay well im just here bored, im supposed to hang out with Kenny tonight but he might have work. we'll see.

i have all these friends and still no comments...hmm...u guys alive out their?

friends//public

Tue, 06 Jun 2006 02:01:14 GMT

Okay so here is the deal. im making my journal half friends only and half not. the things that i dont want people to read will be friends only. my frinds list will not have any rockland people on it, unless ur one of my best friends..but dont worry cuz 99% of my posts from now on will be public. =] so yea..add me, comment here and let me know..ill prob. add ya back <33